Sunday, September 16, 2012

Whispers to and from the King (from long ago)

I found this blog account I started a few years ago under an old email today, coincidentally. I only wrote 2 blog posts on that blog- which Ironically I entitled "Ramblings of a Voyager" (so clearly I've considered myself a sojourner of such for a while now)- and this one I read and could hear the despair in my voice. It's funny because I felt this despair call to the despair that still dwells in me. Then I thought, what better way to begin writing what I'm truly feeling than to share what I already have written on the matter, and then to conquer it with truths! (As you read, you'll see where I already have combat the despair with truths...its just a matter of taking it that one step further, deeper). So here is the old, and the near future will ensue the new.

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Whispers to and from the King

come to me....
come to me....
come....

hmmmm....that's a thought....go to him.
Go to him...go TO him....just go.

days seem bleak...

hope often feels more like a myth than anything else....

truth is treated as if it were optional or just an idea....

(come to me.)

the world has gone a rye, I feel insignificant and incomplete....

God grant me the serenity to accept the things i cannot change...

the courage for the things i can....

and wisdom to know the difference...

(you don't need serenity...wisdom...or courage...
you need me....
come...)

i look around and everything i knew to be good has the familiar stench of very bad...

the Godly forsake God...

marriages are fading faster than my blue jeans...

perseverance is treated as if it is only associated with chivalry, knights in shining armor, not day to day living....

giving up and walking away has become cliche...

i'm really sad....


come to me...
there is nothing cliche about that....it won't be done in vain...
you know truth, you know it is not a fairytale....you know my soul beacons for you....my love for you and the depth of my involvement in your life will persevere through all time and into eternity.....our hearts are so intertwined they are fusing into one and can never fade away or become separated....

come to me...
listen...hear the stillness in my whisper.....leave it behind and just come....
come. to. me.
come.


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Out with the old, in with the new.

Sunday, September 9, 2012

True Love Waits?

I just read a blog about true love waits...incredibly good...and thought provoking.

 I've had a similar experience with church and true love waits, I don't blame the church for my naivety, I blame myself for not seeking truth.

Granted the true love waits symbol in and of itself is a nobel one, one that promotes purity and holiness and not just abstinence (even though, in many ways that's what our bible belt society has turned it into) and those things are good.

 Yet, I cant help but think now, looking back at my own experience with TLW (aka conferences,studies, rings and things), that those things are good, but they aren't God- which is what this girl's point was. She made the point, True Love Waits for what? For a husband? For God to grant our wishes? What's it waiting for? To sum up her blog, We are told to save sex for marriage, to wait a husband, but that isn't what Jesus wants...He wants us. ALL OF US. Not for us to have another to put our hope in. We have true love, His name is Jesus.

 Great blog, Great truth to accept.

I thought about this great Love we have and true love and I thought more on my own experiences and truths I know...and I thought...

Why on Earth, the people who started TLW, would they have ever chose that phrase??

It's SO FALSE!!!

I've said this before and I'll say it again. God is Love. Love is God. It's all the same. That being said, True Love, doesn't wait! True Love, is an all consuming fire and He is out to set the World ablaze, not to wait.

When Christ picked his disciples He said leave everything and follow me, and they did. When one asked to bury his father first Jesus replied... “Follow me, and let the dead bury their own dead.” (Matt 8:22) Does that sound like the kind of love that waits? 

Now, that's not to say Jesus never waits, because he did and He does. He waits for us to choose Him. Revelation says that Jesus stands at the door and knocks (incessantly) and whoever answers, He will come in and dine. True Love knew that love could not be forced and therefore He waits for us to chose Him, to love Him. But no where in scripture does He wait stagnantly. He is in a constant state of reconciling the world to himself. He is in a constant state of making His love known and undeniable. He is in a constant state of sanctification of the saints.

He waits FOR us, not ON us. 

He is bigger than us, His love and goodness is not contingent on us, but because true Love decided to sacrifice Himself and His rights FOR us, He waits FOR us to do the same for Him....

 True Love doesn't wait. True love calls Himself out of us and demands a holiness that a ring or selfish ambition cannot produce. True Love doesn't wait until we reach eternity to make us in the likeness of perfection; He has set transformation into motion now. True love doesn't wait to purify us; He has already heated the fire for our cleansing. True love doesn't wait to share Himself with us- in fact true love began before any of us were knit together in our mother's womb (psalm 139). True Love is not limited to time or space, and so true love is not limited to waiting...No, True Love loves to fiercely to wait.

True Love just doesn't Wait.